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Shut up and drive, never assume that the road is always smooth, in fact dont expect it to be smooth, matter of fact its hardly ever smooth…

You see in this messed up life you’re bound to go down at some point in time, at some point in time you’ll break your leg, they’ll smack you in the face, they’ll leave you for dead, you’ll make a horrible mistake, you’ll regret what you’ve done, at some point in time you’ll feel like sh*t, and feel horrible about yourself…

Things happen… The only thing you need to remember is that What Dont Kill You Can Only Make You Stronger…

You dont have to look what’s worst in you, you need to look what’s beautiful in you, you need to look at what you’ve done right and convince yourself that it aint so bad living in this messed up world, coz remember that if things are bound to go bad sometimes, then its only fair to say that it will get better, and you’ll only have to look forward to that moment when things are better, coz someday, someway, somehow it will get better… maybe not tomorrow, not next month,not next decade… but if you just shut up drive, stop complainin and start workin, stop slacking and do your business… someday you’ll see, you’ll feel, you’ll live for the better… you’ll breathe in and feel the goodness inside…

In the mean time, until that time, you have to hold on to yourself, compose yourself, never let them see you cry, never let them doubt you, in the mean time seek strength from all around you, coz you never know who or what’s out there that can and will help you, while things are bad thank God you still breathe, you’re breathin, life itself is your gift, the air you breathe is an everyday blessing, think of the people who suffer in war,babies passing away by SIDS,people havin sickness and despair, and thank God your life aint so bad… just appreciate the little things you have, not everyone has a warm bed and a blanket like you do, appreciate the people who help you, appreciate the people around you…coz they’re there to ease things up even just a fraction better, when those things add up it’ll keep you goin…

So thanks to you whose always around and there to brighten my day up a bit, thanks for your time even if you have your own stuff to worry about…Thanks coz you brighten my day in ways you’ll never realize…

Thanks to everyone… and Sorry for my bad…

It all comes down to this, what dont kill can only make you stronger, do what you gotta do, no whining, no slacking, at least try… shut up and drive… just shut up,eyes on the road ahead, that time will come when things are brighter…

GBY

peace

maRu

Pa,

everytime i remember you i cry, everytime i realize i’ve done nothing to help you i breakdown, i’ve failed on my own accord, ive done nothing but to sit my sorry ass at home and wait for nothin, wait for a miracle knowing that miracles happen only when you do something about it and be the miracle…

im so sorry papa, i love you, im sorry that i didnt visit you even if i had all the chances, im sorry we didnt have the chance to talk often, im sorry not to have shared my life with you… if i can turn back time i would, ill tell you everything about me, ill tell you all about my school, my awards, my dancing, my classmates, ill tell you all about the two most amazing people mae and razel,ill tell you all about bruce,shobe, nico and tati, ill tell you all about the times when nico and i played basketball in dapitan complex, ill tell you how pretty tati has grown, ill tell you how atenikka and i look after each other…

if i can just turn back time ill make up for everything i missed in both our lives, i want to be part of your life, not just a mere memory of your last hours…im sorry to have abandoned you…

everytime i remember you i cry, i cry coz i allowed it to happen, im so busy with my life, ive been selfish, i hope i just spent more time with you… ive realized how we are alike, we’re both sensitive, both emotional, we’re both weak, but we’re also both strong at the same time and ill prove it to you someday, ill make up for the time we havent shared our lives, someday i’ll visit you in tabuk and show you what i’ve become, and if ill be blessed with kids ill bring them and tell them how we both look alike…

i could have said this in front of your face, only i couldnt, now that your gone all i have is your memory, and ill hold on to that memory, ill remember how we were, though we are oblivious to one another, though i knew little about you, though we are strangers to one another and though your gone,i havent felt closer to you ever in my life than now… please stay with me, and ill make up for all the time we missed,i want you to stay…

when i look at the mirror i see you behind my face, i see the same sensitive, emotional, weak person that ive seen in you, but i also see the strong person behind the weak one, and that person  is me with you in me… that person is me only alot stronger because of you… when i look in the mirror i see us together in the same face…and as long as you stay home in that mirror you’ll stay safe,safe in my heart, and ill protect you, i love you so much and im sorry…

your memory is in me forever,i love you

your son,

maru